tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45958556275563967932024-02-20T00:55:21.036-08:00Just another dayAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783110551018600605noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4595855627556396793.post-65594295066226283562014-02-06T12:53:00.004-08:002014-02-06T12:53:36.544-08:00what is trust?<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><b>The definition of trust: firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.</b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br />But does that even mean anything anymore? Not very likely. Does anyone know what trust even means anymore? Nope. If you had a red flag so to speak... or an inkling feeling that someone was up to no good, would you "investigate," persay? Even if you are married? Here is my situation...<br />I married my husband. I love him more than ANYTHING in the entire world. However... the past few months have been a hot mess to put it lightly. He's just ...something is not right anymore. I have to beg him for a kiss goodnight, he never says "I love you," unless I say it first. And if he does say it, it's with a rushed attitude like he feels force. Our sex life is lacking. Maybe once every few weeks maybe a month. And when we have sex it's not like how it used to be, it feels like I am in a porn. Where its BANG just get it over with. He hasn't called me or complimented me since we got married over a year ago. I have confronted him several times and asked him if he is still in love with me and he says he is..then I ask what is wrong he won't answer.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br />Lately he has been hiding a lot. Anytime I ask "who are you talking to," he says "no one." But it's clearly a lie. I am not stupid. He thinks I have no idea what is going on. I know his heart isn't with me anymore, but he doesn't want a divorce? Well neither do I. but I feel like I am living in a fairy tale and am in severe denial. Last time we got into it, well a fight, he called me a pathetic high school girl. Mind you, I am 26 years old. He says he does not have feelings for any other woman. Yet he acts like I am just one of the guys. I just wish he would tell me the truth. I'd rather him be honest with me, and if I am just over thinking it I wish he would meet me half way. I am sick of being second best to everyone. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">I may not work, but he knows why I have not been able to find a job. I go to school full-time, keep a clean house, and use my VA benefits to pay the bills and help with groceries and anything he wants. But it is still not enough. It is never good enough. I get shafted. I am constantly trying everything I can to make him happy and keep him close but for some reason I feel like he is running further and further away...</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783110551018600605noreply@blogger.com0